The 29th Day of Ramadan.
We go to the masjid for the usualÂ Taraweeh. The Imam prays theÂ IshaÂ prayer and suddenly there is an announcement after the prayer. The Moon Sighting Council has announced the sighting of the crescent. Shawwal has descended. Ramadan is over. Heart skips a beat. A sudden sense of loss and regret.
TheÂ last minuteÂ of the last day of Ramadan.
Did I make the best use of this Ramadan? Were my prayers sincere enough? Did I listen to the QurÃ¡n recitation in earnest and not let my mind wander duringÂ Taraweeh? Did IÂ utiliseÂ the last ten days well? The time of answeringÂ duasÂ – during the time of breaking fast/ last middle third of the night – Did I make earnest sincereÂ duas? Or was I busy updating my social media and making myÂ InstagramÂ feed pretty?
Was I mindful every minute of every day of Ramadan? Will I live up to see another Ramadan?
Regret takes over me as I hear the announcement, masking the excitement of Shawwal. An alternate of emotions from one extreme to another. Happiness on being able to experience this Ramadan, remorse on not being mindful enough, the joyÂ onÂ being able to finish theÂ KhatamÂ Al Quran, regret on not learning theÂ TafseerÂ and finally the sense of peace on reaching Shawwal.Â
I promise myself I will do better next time if anyÂ InshaAllah. Â I shall take the Shawwal 6 fast and other Sunnah fasts – my internalÂ â€˜mind-voiceâ€™ goes on and on. I shallÂ be consistentÂ in myÂ IbadahÂ from my now own, I say to myself.
The intense feeling of regret makes us to better our self and becomes an impetus for our improvement. The sense of regret makes us ponder of our habits andÂ day-to-dayÂ activities. It reminds us of the fleeting nature of this Dunya.
Now I divert your attention to an Ayah from the Holy Quran:Â SurahÂ MaryamÂ Verse 39
‘And warn them, [O Muhammad], of the Day of Regret, when the matterÂ will be concluded; and [yet], they are in [a state of] heedlessness, and they do not believe’
Ø§Ù„ØØ³Ø±Ø© ÙŠÙˆÙ… – YawmÂ AlÂ HasaraÂ – referring to the Day of Judgement – Day of Regret.
HasaraÂ – The word means deep regret and remorse that we would want toÂ ceaseÂ to exist.
Â A detailed description of this day in another verse:Â Surah AlÂ FurqanÂ Verse 27
And the Day the wrongdoer will bite on his hands [in regret] he will say, “Oh, I wish I had taken with the Messenger a way.
Imagine the regret we will be feeling on that day? Â The regret of not having enoughÂ khushooÂ in our prayer. The regret of wasting our time in unnecessary acts. The regret of talking disrespectfully to our parents. The regret of charity undone. The regret of not learning the Qur’an. The regret of not understanding its beautiful language. The regret of not givingÂ ZakaahÂ on time. The regret of every second that weÂ didn’t spentÂ in the remembrance ofÂ Allah.Â On this day, it is not only the people who wasted their time in useless activities that will regret but also the people who have done good – for all the good that they haven’t done.Â An intense regret indeed.
The regret we feel on the last day of Ramadan would be a minute fraction of the intense regret ofÂ YawmÂ AlÂ Hasara.Â
Allahumma, save us from the evils of ourÂ nafsÂ and make usÂ amongstÂ those whose faces will be light on the Day of Judgement
To get ourselves out ofÂ Ghafla/heedlessness, a few points :Â
1) To revive oneself with the Dhikr of Allah.
2) Another manifestation of Dhikr of Allah isÂ the recitation ofÂ the Holy Qur’an
3) Establish prayer at its appointed time
May Dhikr,Â TilawahÂ andÂ SalaahÂ be the corner-stone of our days this Ramadan and hence forth.
Dr. Shahira is a dentist by profession. Currently on a clinical break and is a stay-at-home mum to her 1 year old daughter. She blogs at Â ByShahira (https://drshahira.com) She is passionate about creative writing, faith, dentistry and of late,Â attachment parenting and the likes. She can be contacted on Instagram (https://instagram.com/dr_shahira), facebook (https://facebook.com/drshahirablog) and Twitter (@iihahs)